Through the Analyst and Three of Swords, this week we’re being called to let go of our need to understand. Can we embrace our wounds without needing to know why they happened? Welcome everyone! For an overview of what I’m doing here, please check out
Jenna, this is an interesting combination for me...to analyse my wounds or do I let the pain be the scaffolding for healing and transformation. I wonder, can I do both? Can I understand without the need to dig so far inward that others are hurt by my need to know? Can I understand in a way that empowers everyone released of pain, hurt, blame, shame, guilt and feeling that I have to be silent? Can I understand and heal the deeply broken in a way that empowers me with wisdom and knowledge, compassion and understanding? YES I CAN!!! For me I feel that my body will tell me when the Analytic part of me needs to step a side for the Greater Wisdom to come through. I feel that I have learnt and am still learning that the CORE PAIN within my heart needs not the Analyst that prods and prod with a white glove of a headmaster, rather one that holds and asks questions that heals my heart and soothes my nervous system. The Analyst in me is beginning to understand when to question and when to LISTEN. "Facts and figures on a computer screen isn't always the answer," says my inner Sovereign to my inner Analyst.
Thank you for inviting this chat. Thank you for opening another door within me for contemplation, understanding and hope.
Jenna another amazing combo. They all are really, another facet of human existence! I loved what you wrote here around the 3ofS, especially around keeping the swords in the heart rather than taking them out. Maybe at some point that can happen, but not through the needing to know or trying to figure it out. The mentalization that lacks heart, love and care. This also brings up the wounded healer. Wounds that are not meant to heal but are the doorway in supporting others. Not all challenges, difficulties and hardships need to be analyzed. Yes breaking things down can help open to a deeper understanding as long as the pieces are put back together so the whole picture can be seen. Yep another great archetype and tarot! Hope you had a great trip!
Thank you, Julie! I hope you had a great trip too and I can't wait to hear all about it! I love that you brought the Wounded Healer here, that feels exactly right. And I so agree, there is a time for analysis, but sometimes that's not the way to wholeness and the wounds just need to be held.
What you have analyzed so poetically of the analyst is brilliance and of the two of these together is a light shining on the collective gestalt about over-analyzing (psychologizing and pathologizing) our lives. Could we give ourselves a break? Let ourselves be humans who hurt and yearn in the face of and in spite of being wounded? Just be intimate with fact of our lives right here, right now, careful not to tell a story and then analyze the story—immediately sweeping us away from living presence to this moment.
You could write a book about these draws, and people would read it, and lives would be transformed, and so, the collective.
I didn't think of this when writing the post, but the Analyst and Three of Swords sort of feels like a portal to integral structure (or am I merely obsessed and seeing Gebser everywhere?). It's like a call to bring the Analyst (Mental) into the ways of the heart and through this integration become Presence. I love your statement: "Just be intimate with fact of our lives right here, right now, careful not to tell a story and then analyze the story—immediately sweeping us away from living presence to this moment." So beautiful! And thank you for the idea of writing a book about these draws. I had never considered that.
It does happen. Doesn't it? Seeing Gebser everywhere. It's as if something clicks and the whole world is . . . seen through . . . anew. Perhaps this "click" is a turn toward the Integral, and in this way, bringing the "ways of the heart (Mythic) to the Analyst (Mental, as you say, and do so beautifully in this interpretation) is presencing––or"presentiating" (Gebser)––integration, and your interpretations of these card draws draw us, the reader, ever closer. You give us a gift every week that transcends the meaning potentia in these two cards pulled.
Thanks, Kerani! It seems like I'm really noticing a cultural move towards including our wounds as part of ourselves (versus trying to get rid of them), which I absolutely love. It feels so much more relational than choosing which parts of ourselves are worthy of sticking around.
Jenna, this one really rang true for me this week. I too tend to try and analyse everything to the minute detail. To the point where it becomes exhausting trying to eliminate every last speck of it. I too am going to try and lean into not analysing, but letting parts of me just stay exactly as they are. What a blessed relief!
You're so right! It does feel scary, but liberating at the same. Another comment here helped me see that a lot of my tendency to overanalyze is out of an attempt to control the future. Something about getting that clarity has really helped me loosen my grip on the need to analyze everything. Like you said, I feel such relief!
This is definitely something I am still tending to do, but really want to loosen that grip too Jenna. I feel like my life would get a lot simpler and give me more space for the good stuff. 🙏💫
My analyst is fixated on trying to prevent any more swords piercing me *in the future*. I attended a retreat this weekend focused on the topic of Trust and a lot of swords were coming through in my tarot reading. I recognize this aspect of Self, the one who is keeping all of the lists and analyzing all of the possibilities and trying to hold everything all at once to prevent or delay any unpleasant aspects of the future.
This is brilliant, thank you, Jenna! 🤗 My analyst is also deeply focused on preventing future sword piercings, but I hadn't realized it until you mentioned it. Now that I think of it, most of the reason my analyst wants to make sense of everything is to prevent future swords from happening. The logic seems to be: if I know why something happened, I can stop it from happening again. I'm not sure that logic actually holds up in real life though. Lol. This adds a whole deeper dimension to letting of the need to know why. Thanks again for this! So helpful!
Between the Lover and the Tower pairing and the Analyst and the Three of Swords pairing you are really tracking with my path/insights!
In my tarot reading this weekend there was a moment where she said "You're protecting yourself from something, but you can't yet see what it is that is driving this protective maneuvering. It's something related to experiences in childhood." As I typed out that sentence I felt the same internal confirmation that I experienced when the reader said it to me. It's exciting to feel closer to unpacking this roadblock of mine! I am hoping that your pairings over the next few weeks will help me unpack that a little bit more. *Why* am I trying to control for the future outcome?
I've watched my mom live out a fear-of-scarcity pattern, accumulating goods (that she often doesn't even take out of the shopping bags) and speaking about how it might all be gone in a moment, even when she had gained access to more wealth than most people can dream of in this lifetime. Her Analyst is cataloguing resources and constantly telling her she is coming up short. She felt trapped in an abusive childhood home where she was controlled and manipulated into building up and maintaining resources (farming area) for her parents, and something about that experience has crafted a psyche where she feels she must must must collect and hoard enough for herself.
I can see this as a possible impetus for her, but it's still very cloudy when I try to turn the same lens on myself. My Analyst is particularly focused on cataloging time, emphasizing that I'm not getting to enough tasks/projects, I'm not being disciplined enough, not consistent enough, running out of time. Saturn is my chart ruler :). I have witnessed enough in myself to understand that these insights unfold in their own time, and I will understand things in a different way at some point in the future. But I'm so anxious to uncover the root of my Analyst's motivations! There is definitely a part of me that believes that if I can "make sense" of the why, then I can unravel from my adherence to the Analyst's messaging.
Thank you so much for sharing this, Jenna! This sentence here is SO me..."My Analyst is particularly focused on cataloging time, emphasizing that I'm not getting to enough tasks/projects, I'm not being disciplined enough, not consistent enough, running out of time." And then I'm also incredibly stingy with my time (I can get really annoyed when people "take" too much of it). That all speaks to a scarcity mentality within me too. Lately I've begun relating with Time as a sacred being and, when I remember to do it, it has been a tremendous help as far as seeing the infiniteness of it.
I'm so glad you shared the story of your mom. I work a lot with ancestors and have learned that so much of our patterning comes from some ancestral wound that happened thousands of years ago and gets passed down the line, manifesting in slightly different ways. Reading your mom's story has reminded me to look into my own ancestry for this shadow Analyst. I feel pretty sure I'm going to find some answers there. (Or is this me overanalyzing again? Lol.)
Jenna, this is an interesting combination for me...to analyse my wounds or do I let the pain be the scaffolding for healing and transformation. I wonder, can I do both? Can I understand without the need to dig so far inward that others are hurt by my need to know? Can I understand in a way that empowers everyone released of pain, hurt, blame, shame, guilt and feeling that I have to be silent? Can I understand and heal the deeply broken in a way that empowers me with wisdom and knowledge, compassion and understanding? YES I CAN!!! For me I feel that my body will tell me when the Analytic part of me needs to step a side for the Greater Wisdom to come through. I feel that I have learnt and am still learning that the CORE PAIN within my heart needs not the Analyst that prods and prod with a white glove of a headmaster, rather one that holds and asks questions that heals my heart and soothes my nervous system. The Analyst in me is beginning to understand when to question and when to LISTEN. "Facts and figures on a computer screen isn't always the answer," says my inner Sovereign to my inner Analyst.
Thank you for inviting this chat. Thank you for opening another door within me for contemplation, understanding and hope.
Much love to you dear one.💖
ps. how was your workshop?
Jenna another amazing combo. They all are really, another facet of human existence! I loved what you wrote here around the 3ofS, especially around keeping the swords in the heart rather than taking them out. Maybe at some point that can happen, but not through the needing to know or trying to figure it out. The mentalization that lacks heart, love and care. This also brings up the wounded healer. Wounds that are not meant to heal but are the doorway in supporting others. Not all challenges, difficulties and hardships need to be analyzed. Yes breaking things down can help open to a deeper understanding as long as the pieces are put back together so the whole picture can be seen. Yep another great archetype and tarot! Hope you had a great trip!
Thank you, Julie! I hope you had a great trip too and I can't wait to hear all about it! I love that you brought the Wounded Healer here, that feels exactly right. And I so agree, there is a time for analysis, but sometimes that's not the way to wholeness and the wounds just need to be held.
Jenna,
What you have analyzed so poetically of the analyst is brilliance and of the two of these together is a light shining on the collective gestalt about over-analyzing (psychologizing and pathologizing) our lives. Could we give ourselves a break? Let ourselves be humans who hurt and yearn in the face of and in spite of being wounded? Just be intimate with fact of our lives right here, right now, careful not to tell a story and then analyze the story—immediately sweeping us away from living presence to this moment.
You could write a book about these draws, and people would read it, and lives would be transformed, and so, the collective.
I didn't think of this when writing the post, but the Analyst and Three of Swords sort of feels like a portal to integral structure (or am I merely obsessed and seeing Gebser everywhere?). It's like a call to bring the Analyst (Mental) into the ways of the heart and through this integration become Presence. I love your statement: "Just be intimate with fact of our lives right here, right now, careful not to tell a story and then analyze the story—immediately sweeping us away from living presence to this moment." So beautiful! And thank you for the idea of writing a book about these draws. I had never considered that.
It does happen. Doesn't it? Seeing Gebser everywhere. It's as if something clicks and the whole world is . . . seen through . . . anew. Perhaps this "click" is a turn toward the Integral, and in this way, bringing the "ways of the heart (Mythic) to the Analyst (Mental, as you say, and do so beautifully in this interpretation) is presencing––or"presentiating" (Gebser)––integration, and your interpretations of these card draws draw us, the reader, ever closer. You give us a gift every week that transcends the meaning potentia in these two cards pulled.
It would be a most compelling book.
Wanted to circle back on actual day: Happy Birthday Jenna! 🥳🎉🎊🎈
Thank you so much, my dear friend! This made my day truly magical. Sending lots of love to you! ♥️♥️♥️🥰♥️♥️♥️
“Scaffolding of wholeness.” I adore that ♥️
Thanks, Kerani! It seems like I'm really noticing a cultural move towards including our wounds as part of ourselves (versus trying to get rid of them), which I absolutely love. It feels so much more relational than choosing which parts of ourselves are worthy of sticking around.
Jenna, this one really rang true for me this week. I too tend to try and analyse everything to the minute detail. To the point where it becomes exhausting trying to eliminate every last speck of it. I too am going to try and lean into not analysing, but letting parts of me just stay exactly as they are. What a blessed relief!
You're so right! It does feel scary, but liberating at the same. Another comment here helped me see that a lot of my tendency to overanalyze is out of an attempt to control the future. Something about getting that clarity has really helped me loosen my grip on the need to analyze everything. Like you said, I feel such relief!
This is definitely something I am still tending to do, but really want to loosen that grip too Jenna. I feel like my life would get a lot simpler and give me more space for the good stuff. 🙏💫
My analyst is fixated on trying to prevent any more swords piercing me *in the future*. I attended a retreat this weekend focused on the topic of Trust and a lot of swords were coming through in my tarot reading. I recognize this aspect of Self, the one who is keeping all of the lists and analyzing all of the possibilities and trying to hold everything all at once to prevent or delay any unpleasant aspects of the future.
This is brilliant, thank you, Jenna! 🤗 My analyst is also deeply focused on preventing future sword piercings, but I hadn't realized it until you mentioned it. Now that I think of it, most of the reason my analyst wants to make sense of everything is to prevent future swords from happening. The logic seems to be: if I know why something happened, I can stop it from happening again. I'm not sure that logic actually holds up in real life though. Lol. This adds a whole deeper dimension to letting of the need to know why. Thanks again for this! So helpful!
Between the Lover and the Tower pairing and the Analyst and the Three of Swords pairing you are really tracking with my path/insights!
In my tarot reading this weekend there was a moment where she said "You're protecting yourself from something, but you can't yet see what it is that is driving this protective maneuvering. It's something related to experiences in childhood." As I typed out that sentence I felt the same internal confirmation that I experienced when the reader said it to me. It's exciting to feel closer to unpacking this roadblock of mine! I am hoping that your pairings over the next few weeks will help me unpack that a little bit more. *Why* am I trying to control for the future outcome?
I've watched my mom live out a fear-of-scarcity pattern, accumulating goods (that she often doesn't even take out of the shopping bags) and speaking about how it might all be gone in a moment, even when she had gained access to more wealth than most people can dream of in this lifetime. Her Analyst is cataloguing resources and constantly telling her she is coming up short. She felt trapped in an abusive childhood home where she was controlled and manipulated into building up and maintaining resources (farming area) for her parents, and something about that experience has crafted a psyche where she feels she must must must collect and hoard enough for herself.
I can see this as a possible impetus for her, but it's still very cloudy when I try to turn the same lens on myself. My Analyst is particularly focused on cataloging time, emphasizing that I'm not getting to enough tasks/projects, I'm not being disciplined enough, not consistent enough, running out of time. Saturn is my chart ruler :). I have witnessed enough in myself to understand that these insights unfold in their own time, and I will understand things in a different way at some point in the future. But I'm so anxious to uncover the root of my Analyst's motivations! There is definitely a part of me that believes that if I can "make sense" of the why, then I can unravel from my adherence to the Analyst's messaging.
Thank you so much for sharing this, Jenna! This sentence here is SO me..."My Analyst is particularly focused on cataloging time, emphasizing that I'm not getting to enough tasks/projects, I'm not being disciplined enough, not consistent enough, running out of time." And then I'm also incredibly stingy with my time (I can get really annoyed when people "take" too much of it). That all speaks to a scarcity mentality within me too. Lately I've begun relating with Time as a sacred being and, when I remember to do it, it has been a tremendous help as far as seeing the infiniteness of it.
I'm so glad you shared the story of your mom. I work a lot with ancestors and have learned that so much of our patterning comes from some ancestral wound that happened thousands of years ago and gets passed down the line, manifesting in slightly different ways. Reading your mom's story has reminded me to look into my own ancestry for this shadow Analyst. I feel pretty sure I'm going to find some answers there. (Or is this me overanalyzing again? Lol.)